Blogging is a bit of a funny thing, when you really take a minute to think about it. I mean, you sit at your computer and put words together, string sentences and cohesive thoughts into a post that you throw out into the Universe and hope to get a response in return. It’s a very strange thing indeed.
And yet there are thousands of people doing it every single day. I’ve officially been a blogger for about four years now. FOUR YEARS in front of this computer, talking about myself on this little internet space. That is a crazy thing to me. Somehow I’m not anywhere near being tired of it. On the contrary, I’m more immersed in the blogosphere than I have ever been before. I love it more every day, I am addicted. I spend hours getting to know other bloggers and pulling inspiration from them to read, write, watch and live.
Blogging is a truly inspiring hobby. But it’s so much more than that too, isn’t it? It requires a certain kind of person to write a blog worth reading. I don’t know if I’m one of them, but I’m definitely learning what it takes. I’m learning that you need a few qualities to do it properly, and I’m realizing that these qualities are the ones I need to work on the most.
When I started blogging, I had no rhyme or reason to my posts. I wrote little things about my days, I think I just needed an outlet. I was writing for myself mostly, on life and love and growing up and just overall really crap things. I mean, not crap things… My writing was just not that great. At all.
In the last few years though, I’ve come to an important conclusion. I love to write. I always have, and probably always will. When I look back there isn’t a single time that I wasn’t writing SOMETHING. As I got more serious about my writing though, I noticed something pretty important.
I became less honest.
I became more nervous to share things because I was afraid of who would read them.
I spent two months almost not writing AT ALL for the first time in my life at this time last year because of a lot of reasons.
But the point is that I’ve been trying to change that. Last January I started a writing challenge called Post a Day. It’s pretty self explanatory. This whole year I’ve been trying to post every single day in the hopes of getting more of my writing out in the world, and I think overall that’s been a success. Certainly not in the ways I had imagined, but a success in it’s own way nonetheless.
I don’t think that I could complete the challenge without admitting that sometimes I write posts with high expectations. And sometimes I write posts that are not as honest as I’d like them to be. It can be so discouraging to continuously write and put yourself out there without a return. I’m definitely guilty of getting frustrated that I’m not getting something in this world.
That’s the difference between the person I am right now and the person I’d like to be come January 2012. I want to finish this challenge and feel like my writing style, my blog, and my expectations are where I want them to be. So I’m throwing this out there right now.
I want to write completely honest posts. I want my writing to be serious, witty, funny, casual and personal. I want the posts that I write to truly reflect the emotions that I want them to reflect. I don’t want to write something just to write it. Everything I post needs to be up to my personal standards- no one else’s.
Most important, I want to write for myself. I mean, I want to continue writing for you, if you’re reading this… But what I need to remind myself is that this is a project that I WANT to be doing, not something I have to do for someone else. I want people who stop by this place to read the first thing they see and instantly get an idea of the person that I am.
Blogging isn’t for everyone, but I know that right now it’s just right for me. I want to keep finding ways to grow and I want to continue to meet other people who feel this way. I want to stop feeling shy about writing here, I just want to do it.
Tell me, why do you blog? What got you into blogging in the first place? Is your little space on the internet everything you want it to be for yourself?