I wrote a post two days ago about my adventures with blogging so far and the expectations I have of myself from here on out with this space of mine. I said that I was tired of having expectations, I want this to be my blogging space and I want it to be an honest one.
Not surprisingly, a ton of you had great things to say about that and that makes me really happy, but also very nervous. Honesty is something that all bloggers strive to achieve successfully on their blog without overwhelming readers, but while staying true to themselves. Or at least, hopefully.
I’ve always been me on this blog, but I’ve always held back. Not purposely, mind you. I’ve just always wondered where my line was between the internet and my real life. I’m still kind of figuring out my boundaries, but I’m happy to know that honesty is something people WANT to see. That’s not just me. Sometimes it’s easy to just feel like you’re alone in feeling a certain way about what you’re doing and what you’re trying to achieve.
So it’s all nice and dandy to talk about being honest and truthful, but where is my honesty really? I mean I blog, but I’ve only RECENTLY started sharing my links on Twitter for more of my real life friends to see. My close friends have followed my blog since the beginning, but after some experiences last year I started making things more secret around here. I stopped sharing my link everywhere. I stopped being as open and honest as I used to be. As I wanted to be.
I’ve decided that I want to start being a blogger that is proud to be blogging. I am so happy to come home every day and write a post and share it with whoever will read, but why is it that I can’t confront this weird fear of mine, and just share it with everyone else, too? I want to write about the things that I’ve been too afraid to write about– things that matter, but things that won’t offend or get me in trouble of course- and I want to have the guts to let anyone read it.
Sharing with friends and family is a huge step. It’s something I’m working towards. Twitter was step one, and I’m going to work on being okay with sharing on Facebook and maybe other websites I use.
That being said, I’m going to stop blogging about honesty and start writing those posts ASAP. I’m excited (but anxious) to put my thoughts down about things that have been bugging me for a while, but that I’ve been too nervous to share.
So, you know, here’s my heads up. I’m going to give this honesty thing a real deal shot. It seems to be something worth trying. I’m going to be more open and I’m going to make my blog a place I am proud to tell people about.
Who do you share your blog with? Do you have any of these fears if you DO share your blog? Do you get nervous that your real life friends will judge you for your content? Someone, calm me down. 🙂