In the last couple years I’ve become so enamored with goals. I always seem to find a little bit of motivation to accomplish something or other, even when I feel like I am not motivated at all.
Since starting the 12 Changes project in January, I’ve slowly begun to lose my motivation for it. January was a fantastically amazing month, but since then? I’ve been going downhill. And it’s only MONTH THREE.
I still love goals; I love what they are about, I love accomplishing them, and I think setting them up for myself- whether they are all accomplished on time or not- is still a great way to do things that get me out of my comfort zone.
March was supposed to be the month of budgeting. The idea behind March was that I would read about how to be debt free and then live said debt free lifestyle. Things did not quite work out that way. I got as far as buying the book on not buying things anymore, and it has sat on my bookshelf ever since.
Honestly? I’m not too upset about it. Some months I’m really disappointed in myself for not trying harder, but this just isn’t one of them. I haven’t been a big fan of March (have I mentioned that enough around here yet?) and I had a funny feeling going into it that it wouldn’t be a great month for goals.
I’ve learned something important through this, though (don’t I always?). As much as I’d like to be a person who can GO GO GO and be 100% motivated and ready to accomplish things every waking moment, that’s just NOT me. I wish it was, but turns out I’m human. I need a break to just BE. School and work can be stressful enough sometimes, I don’t need the extra added pressure of doing things that just don’t fit into my schedule.
March was my break month. It was a break from ALL my goals. I’ve tried to keep up my January and February themes as I go along, but I let myself cheat these last few weeks. Not to mention I was sick for LITERALLY HALF THE MONTH.
All in all, I’ve decided April is going to be a time to start-over. It’s always tough when you let go of something (almost) completely because it seems even more difficult to get back in the game. I’m pretty confident that if I just use my time carefully, I’ll be able to have a good month of April.
Hopefully this weekend in the midst of all my Hunger Games event-planning and actual event-having I’ll be able to sit down for a couple hours and decide where I want to go from here. I don’t want to continue uselessly writing about a set of goals that I won’t even bother accomplishing, so I want to see if there’s something that will get me interested in goal-setting again, because I do really love it. And writing about it, of course.
Here’s to hoping that Monday morning I’ll have a post ready with new ideas!
Have a fantastic weekend!